Chapter 5-the eerie place that i can never pronounce

On the road again....My appreciation of Ontario has grown by leaps and bounds this time across-it still takes forever, but somehow the endlessness has a grace to it, and every bend in the highway that afforded a new glimpse at Lake Superior cranked open a little more space in that tight, scared heart of mine. I could feel something start to trickle in from the outside world-I didn't yet know what it was, but something was changing in me and how I related to the world.

Pukashwa Provincial Park was my next destination, I believe it is pronounced Pukusaw-but even when I said it that way, nobody knew what I was talking about, was incredible. Again, as most of my stops seemed to be, it was entirely devoid of human life. I wandered through the empty teepees, and walked along the shore with only the wind and the weight of the water as companions. It felt so lonely there-but I understood it, as I was lonely too. There seems to be a strange kind of beauty in loneliness-like being on a wuthering heights film set-standing on the moors-skirts flying, hand on my brow, what's his name Oh yeah-Heathcliff) long gone.......

The group of seven loved to paint there-and some of the views had plaques of their paintings that depicted what was in front of me. I had planned to camp the night, but somehow the silence, and how far it was off the beaten track unnerved me. I was to visit it twice more that year-once with a son and once with a lover...each time it was empty, and each time it whispered something secret into my ear.

Next up...Chapter 6-the prairies! How teeny tiny and insignificant am I?....

One more Detour! Here comes the Beluga!

So...Sorry for the delay in posting-I was really sad and a bit overwhelmed to find out that the Blue Whale has been sent to the bottom of the deep blue sea-and it felt weird to write on the blog that involved her so much. Turns out she was was unfixable-her frame was bent. Also, as I was using a rental, it was dinged in a parking lot, so I have an insurance claim on that too...Needless to say, I was feeling a little unwelcome in this part of the world-and was seriously doubting my sanity and decisions. Granted, I am pushing the box a bit these days, but I hadn't realized how lost I would feel without a teammate (husband). Being homeless for almost a year, never being anywhere for more than two months at a time was a bit stressful-but at least I had my car, which became like a little apartment, and a security blanket of sorts- When that went, I felt a little lost.

I know there are a lot worse things in the world, but i have to say here, that i loved that car, and I am SO grateful that it carried me across the country 3 times last year and gave me such security and comfort. It also broke it's back while I walked away without a scratch. So...goodbye you great little car who was so much more than I car.

Without further ado, let me introduce you to a close cousin of the Blue Whale-the Beluga!
She is white-she has tinted windows, she is almost the same as her cousin-my number one priority for a new car was that I could sleep in it-and so I shall!